You're fighting against your mind too. After a nice first win, your mind lost sense of reality and you shot yourself in the foot.

As in any profession, it takes time to become good at what you do. But after just two months you quit, so you couldn't develop your skills. Yes, this one is a very risky job, but maybe don't go in with everything you got.

I hope you can get back on your feet and find something that makes you happy (and brings the goodies too!).

Thanks for sharing your story